Vandetta Hi .
Im only a short time sober but have lots of life experience in lots of things good and bad including PTSD . Your much stronger than you think and as was said above you came here to say what's going on which is a great sign .
There's very sound advice from the above and I always take something away from all of this . Reading your old threads is a good idea and something I do here and on other forums .
Wishing you all the best