Hi Vendetta.
Sorry it's all feeling hopeless - maybe it's time to take some action. I'm sure you'll get some more response on this thread, but in the meantime, you could have a read through your other threads at the advice given before. Sometimes that helps me. (You can find them by clicking on your name next to one of your posts on this thread, and then click on 'Find all threads started by Vendetta'.)
Did you make it to a meeting in the end?