Hi Vendetta
I think you have it in you
The thing is if you have other issues like PTSD, it's going to take a while.
You'll need to focus on both your PTSD and your alcoholism to be able to move forward.
I know you've been looking for a therapist. Don't give up on that.
Don't give up on staying sober either. Apart from being here, what else do you do to keep sober?
D