Thanks so much for your posts. Anna, I am ready. I have had so much counselling and support but I always seem to crumble when it comes to the first drink. I will be trying. I just think some people are destined to self destruct. I'm not being negative bit this forum as well as the ppl I've heard at aa/na over the years that are in recovery have always made me jealous. I know I can do it but I don't know how. I guess Mabye I've got to detox. Thanks again for the posts guys. I'm so stoked I found this site