I just had a MASSIVE craving!
I was walking my dog and it just hit me! For 20 minutes I was SURE I was gonna drink! My AV said that I deserved it, that December would make a better sobriety month (lol), it told me it would be "fun", and went so far as to plan how I would get away with it!
Geeze! Thank God I was with my dog 25 minutes away from home because I'm not sure what I would have done. Would I have gone to the store to buy booze???
Well I was smart enough to pick up the phone and call my sponsor as soon as my craving started and talked to her for 20 minutes until my craving was gone & I got home from walking my dog. She said "think, think, think all the way through the drink!"
Suddenly I realized that if I drink I will either keep drinking until my death or will have to start all over tomorrow or in the future. Either way, there are only 2 (maybe 3) ways out of this for an alcoholic:
1. Sobriety
2. Death
3. Jail/institutions
It will NEVER be fun again! It will ALWAYS cause pain and indescribable suffering.
Now...I'm gonna read all your posts from today while I eat a snack!
Thx for reading!
Still day 16.
