when my AXBF behaved this way it was from the addiction and using manipulation. I was so proud of myself during the times that I set a boundary and didn't cave. I wonder now, why I tolerated having someone in my life who wasn't really there for any of the good times. You can share here for as you share you will discover more in your words than keeping it inside and hidden from others. We have been where you are. I am sorry that you are so sad but it is thru the challenges that we learn our true strength. Hugs, Joie