I agree with Ann.
My ex husband worked hard to destroy each holiday and special day. I don't care what the excuse was - it's not ok. It's only selfish. Narcissistic.
We divorced 13 years ago but his legacy has roots that may last a lifetime. He passed away in the spring and we have grown to realize that we must change our holidays. He cannot have another one.
You deserve to be happy. Chasing people who are not capable of bringing good things to your life are like poison to our spirits.
I wish you luck in finding what YOU want and what makes YOU happy. Hugs, Joie