Thanks 2much. I've been glued to the forums today and it's helped. Today is my day 1, so I feel funny asking for a sponsor, or a temporary sponsor, but what have I got to lose? I feel different this time, perhaps because I am on a seriously dangerous trajectory and know I have reached the end of the line. A speaker's meeting is a great idea. I found a beginner's meeting in a few hours but was concerned that I might be too old? I am in my 50's. I'll look at my list of meetings and find some speaker meetings. That is such a great idea. Thanks again.