Today I go into the jail to be processed--fingerprinted and mugshot. Yet another awful, dehumanizing, terrifying thing to get through. I feel like this will never end. I know I made a mistake but I am the only one who has been hurt by it and keeps getting punished for it. That IS my life. That is why I am having such a hard time. I was always being punished just for breathing and that is how it feels now.
And it's so lonely having no f2f friends. It was not my addiction that drove them away, just me and my mental illness. It's been a pretty rotten couple of days. And now today I have to do this. I wish it would get better but I know it never will....
But I am once again asking for your positive thoughts sent my way to help me get through this wretched day. Please.