I need some help about getting started with AA
Hi all. I was warmly welcomed to the SoberRecovery Forums in August but have not posted since. To say I have been drinking heavily over the past 4 months would be an understatement. I have come to a time and a place where I realize I will die if I continue. I am alone. I am scared. I have destroyed so many relationships in my life.
I thought I could get sober by myself. I have read countless books on recovery and 12-step programs. I have decided to immerse myself in AA but don't know where to start. I am embarrassed and afraid. Do I start with a beginner's meeting? A step meeting? Any meeting? How can I ask for help when I am at a meeting? I know I can't just walk in and ask for a sponsor, but I want to get a sponser as soon as possible. I need the accountability and support. I want to commit to the 12-step process completely.
I guess I am acknowledging the reality of Step 1 for me and have realized that I need to turn this over and get support.
Any suggestions? Please help me.