Noinsanity, you dodged quite a bullet.
I think most of us, even when we left a desperately bad situation, have moments of regret. Especially around the holidays. What I try to remember is that, yes there were good times, and it is okay to remember and cherish them. And it is even better that I am free to lead the healthy happy life I want and have worked so hard to create.
Happy Thanksgiving to you, and to your new memories and traditions.
ShootingStar1