I know if I choose to not go to meetings for awhile when I return the lights are still on and there's coffee made. Meetings started long before I went and I suspect will be there long after I leave this world.
I find Big Book studies engaging when too much open discussion floods my spirit. The only OD meetings I attend now have some strong sobriety and they don't become too "derailed".
But I gravitate towards more in discussion of the solution than the problem. Some choose to roll around in the muck a lot. That is their choice. My choice is to go to meetings that focus on the solution. Of course newcomers meetings are different - We meet frequently so the newcomer may find the fellowship they seek.
Maybe down the road you will feel differently or not> I am glad you're here regardless and would certainly appreciate you sharing more ESH with us as you have 11 years of sobriety = it may help others and I'd love to hear your story!
thanks for the thread!