I'm w/Venuscat. Yrs ago I nearly succeeded trying to commit suicide. I got into my mother's "pill bag" ( she was on a lot of different narcotics ) & I took them all...over 500 of them. The doctors told my family I wouldn't live & to call our minister. But, in the 11th hr., a specialist was aeromeded to me & saved my life.
I'm so thankful today that I didn't succeed. But, I wouldn't have believed it back then. No sir, I thought my life was **** & didn't think there was anything to live for.
I know you don't believe in God, but I do, so I'm going to pray for you.
((( Hugs )))