Originally Posted by
venuscat 
Lyoness ~ I wish there was a way to help you believe that things can get better.
I know that in that very darkest place, it is hard to find hope.
One thing I can tell you is that I am very glad I 'failed' when I tried to leave this world...I would never have known the freedom I feel now. I would never have known this feeling of calm, and I would never have believed that life would be a joyous place for me.
That doesn't mean I don't have problems; I have some doozies, but I can cope much better now. Things really can improve as long as we don't give up.
♥
Thank you for your kind words and sharing your experience.
I hear what you are saying, I do. Its just I have no hope. I feel everything is closing in on me, drowning me, choking me, suffocating me in darkness. I see no out, nuts more pain and punishment everywhere.