The suicides are very sad but very real. At least a couple times today I had very loose thoughts about the concept. I feel like I would never go there, could never go there. But maybe, to some extent understand how others who couldn't beat addiction have felt so helpless and hopeless there wasn't a better option. I know sobriety is the only option. I've tasted it before during the past couple years but somehow let the taste of beer and wine win it over at times.