Hello. Oh goodness, it took me YEARS to finally come to the decision to leave. I could see my children getting worse from the outcome of the verbal abuse, and they were even getting frustrated with me for not taking enough action. I kept thinking that I was doing the right thing by them having two parents in the same home. Ha. Eventually I just knew...enough was enough.
My X is still abusing Rx drugs w/alcohol and is a train wreck. Life is not perfect by any means, my children are still exposed to him infrequently, and are hurt by his all consuming crappy behavior. However, this made 90% of their life better versus being exposed to him on a daily basis.
I am happy with the decision I made. In hindsight, I would have decided to do it a lot earlier than I did, but I cannot change that, I just keep moving forward, a step at a time.
Many, many hugs to you.