Originally Posted by
pams 
You tell that AV Kiki.....you got this.... I am very sad to find out that a co-worker committed suicide yesterday . He had some life stuff going on and was drinking heavily to deal with it. He wasn't even 40 years old..... If that's not a reminder of why I am working so hard to stay sober I don't know what is.....
Thank you Pams. This time of day (between 2:00-5:00ish) is the hardest!!! Probably because that's when I would start drinking. I hope these cravings go completely away soon!
That is soooo sad about you co-worker! It's sad where this disease takes us. I can't tell you how may times I thought about suicide the last few months of my drinking (so like 10 days ago). I just felt so hopeless......Like I was never gonna get out of that hell. I think the only reason I didn't do it is because of my kids. I wouldn't want them to have to live with that, ya know? Plus I'm not sure I really would have had the "balls" to do it. But when I was drunk...I just got soooo depressed and that's when I would think about it. :-(
I will pray for the family of your co-worker. This disease kills WAY too many people. :-(
Craving is gone, by the way.