Chy said it all, very good...
Glad to have you here at SR. I hope you stay around, and keep posting.
I think you know that it is a bad idea, because you're here. You know it was tough to kick coke last year, but kicking H. is much harder. Just don't do it, don't mess up the rest of your life...
Sorry to hear about you supporting your family. this is a messed up world, and it's tough on kids and people today. Just hang in there, you sound like a really smart girl, you can get through this.. Love, Becky