Hi Greeneggsandham, for what its worth, I'm right there along side you. I have to keep my mind occupied doing something. Anything. Mostly reading. Boredom and alcohol go hand in hand for me. I always thought I did some of my deepest thinking alone and with a buzz. I do not have as much time under my belt as you, but I have the same thoughts. As of now, I accept them and don't feel shortchanged, yet.