Originally Posted by
FaithfulAndFree 
I'll reach out to a friend for a casual drink
You haven't accepted that sobriety, that quitting forever, is the answer. Your solution to the problem of loneliness was drinking. Not the countless other things you could have done sober. You said it yourself, you thought "this time it will be different." But it never is. Never will be.
I hope you can figure out how to embrace sobriety and learn how to cope without alcohol.