Hi GEAH
good to hear from you
For a few months in my early recovery I really missed drinking - not really that surprising as I drank with everything.
It was a rough few months but I gradually got used to doing things and not drinking.
I don't think it's a failure to do things you used to do drunk and to feel that pull - but it might be a failure to not do those things.
We got sober to embrace change after all
Everyone one of us has to deal with that pull until we get used to living the kind of life we want sober.
Fortunately there's a lot of support here and elsewhere to keep us in the right road.
Just as we had to learn to live as routine drunks, it tasks a little while to learn this sober living thing. Don;t let the fear get to you - and don;t be afraid to continue to make changes in your life. You might find that different circles of friends could help, or different activities.
If you drank 'medicinally' don;t be afraid to explore other healthier ways to deal with those emotions or feelings.
Please don't give up
D