I'm really glad to read that T2R
What really cemented my recovery was accepting what I was - an alcoholic - and accepting that my relationship with alcohol was always and always will be toxic.
I'd gone down Alcohol Rd so often I know there's no answers there for me...however rocky the road may get (and it does sometimes) I know the answers to my problems are ahead of me, not behind.
Anytime I find myself thinking a drink might be the answer, I know it's BS and I disengage from those thoughts.
Mindfulness - urge surfing etc - helped me a lot there.
I finally figured out I can be the man I want to be...or drink...but not both.
Not much to write a book on, but that's the way I see it
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