So I stupidly txt him guys.... I know... I know what was I thinking a moment of madness, sat in the car outside work... My son had been playing a cd he had made for him and I was just to weak... I just asked him if we could come home, move forward together, I know it can't go back..... I am not expecting a response, maybe I had to do it for a final goodbye.. I don't know... Guess I'm just struggling. I can't believe he could just switch his emotions of just like that?!?