Originally Posted by
Juno11 
I'm scared of this beast - this insidious beast. I drank tonight. I don't have a good reason - is there ever a good reason? Built up pressure I think. Everything's gone - will start up again tomorrow. This is hard.
The thing about the beast is ...it's utterly powerless on its own.
It really is.
Think about it - without you to agree with its persuasion, without you to get up, go to the shop, buy booze, come home, open it up and drink it - the beast is flummoxed.
It has no arm or legs, no mouth...not even a brain of its own.
It will pull out all the stops to try and convince you that the most dire things will happen to you if you don't drink.
I believed it for years...until I got through bad stuff sober...AND THE PRESSURE WENT AWAY OF ITS OWN ACCORD.
That was a serious revelation for me.
Believe in yourself Juno - you
can stay sober and you
will find other healthier ways to deal with building pressure.
You can come here and post and rat your AV out.
It won't like it - it will scream and shout and kick and curse - but it will wear itself out...
it's utterly totally and completely powerless if you simply say NO
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