Hey GoldenSands, I can completely understand how you feel minus the children and a husband or ( wife ) in my case. I just turned 27 and am facing a dui charge! Trust me, you can go back now with out risking all that you have built! I plan to be completely sober ( asap ). It a one day at a time process! If you really want to quit a bit faster, how about going to the gym with your husband if you can get someone to babysit the little ones. I think even some of the gyms have a little baby sitting program for the children while you work out. See if that can be an option. Please don't end up like me, I've let drinking take everything from me, but I am fighting to get it all back - sobriety will do that in time! Trust me with such a loving family as you got, you can get your life back too!