I had a long and honest conversation with my husband with lots of tears. He will taper for me and I will have no access to alcohol. I honestly don't want it. My desire to quit is so high...I've wanted to quit so many times in the past, but this is a totally different thing. I'm done with it. It is killing me and destroying my life. I don't want to sit in a hospital for this as my drive is so darn strong right now I truly believe with the support of my family we can do this.