I tapered.
Don't be discouraged! You have the desire! I'm glad you're okay.
Tapering doesn't work for most people, and the people on this site don't generally encourage it - but it was the right thing for me. It's just there isn't really a scientific way to do it, and prescription drugs do a better and safer job. I was too ignorant to know that it was dangerous to taper. Thankfully I survived.