Just woke from a nightmare, I was drinking in it, it's 5am Irish time, I don't feel all the better for it but relieved it's not true. Checked my bank balance as rent is due and yes I spent quite a bit on my spree and rent is due so my heart is thumping, I dont like to owe anything and certainly don't like to borrow but i have to swallow my pride and reach out to my brother for remainder until I get back on my feet. The worry of it has me awake but thats part of my consequences and I have to accept it. It could be a lot worse as I am only short 100euro but I'm normally on top of things, looks like I'll have to spend the week on bread and water, it can be done, I've often went weeks without eating only drink alone.. Here's to a brighter future for us all...