I suppose it would've been many things but unfortunately I had to lose them all or I would've kept pushing my limits. I had two homes. Would've had one in San Francisco. Both went into foreclosure. I would've not feared creditors since that became a defect through my substance abuses. I would've gotten a degree & focused in school. The seats would've not been empty at thanksgiving and Christmas and their birthdays and I would've been punctual to work School etc and been present at other events. I would've not endangered other drivers and pedestrians and I would've not gotten into jail for hitting people.
On the positive note, I'm grateful for not repeating my behaviors and for my daily living amends from not taking a drink/drug.