Tangled....this is still pretty fresh, for you. You will grieve for a while longer.....
In the big picture of your life....look at this as short-term pain for the long-term gain.....
What do you want your life to look like in one year....3yrs.....5yrs.......
Write out some of you longer term goals and dreams....
***I think it is verrry important for you to make plans for Christmas, right NOW.....so that you aren't sitting in a puddle of tears on Christmas day.....
Maybe, start making some cheap handmade presents for other people and visit friends or family.....or, even visit someone who is lonely at this time of year.....
In other words...do Something.....you will be so glad that you did!
dandylion