Thanks Lexie
I went back and read through this thread just now, and I'm glad I did.
When things are calm, it's so easy for me to forget the ugliness, and the terror I felt so many times during his rampages.
Last night was good. He was gone when I got home, and I didn't hear from him, but yes, I know it's likely he will come back sooner or later.
Most of his belongings are still here... including his truck.
His driver license is still suspended, which is one thing that makes me feel a little bit safer right now. He would have to walk or get a ride to my house from his brother's across town.... or wherever he's staying. Which is not impossible, but just not as easy as it would be for him if he were driving.
Not trying to minimize it, I know the danger is still very real.... and I will still consider getting a protective order.
Thanks!