Originally Posted by whopper

Hi, I have been on this site for a year or so now. During this time I have and haven't drank. When I do drink a lot I have felt like ending my life. Not every time though, just sometimes. I mean I am 39, I have no job, and live at home in my parents house. I also have like no friends, not even a girlfriend. I feel so bad about my life, or lack of a life that I dunno how to change it and make my life how I want it to be. After highschool I lost my friends, and when I went to a college I was depressed and didn't make friends. I've been a loner for the last 15 years or so. I feel so lonely most days, it really hurts when I think of other ppl and how they have a partner and kids and I have nothing. I don't even have a sibling.

A lot of ppl here on SR talk about their SO and their problems, but I don't even have a SO. I really feel alone, I don't want to be alone forever.