You are not alone. Alcohol is a depressant, and it definitely made me feel hopeless. If you feel depressed when you're not drinking, it could be an idea to talk to your dr. There is help for depression. If the alcohol is causing your depression, once you stop for good, things should begin to improve.
Have you tried to look for work and find a job? It could be very helpful for your mental state if you could get out, work, get a paycheck and become more independent.