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Old 11-05-2015, 07:04 AM
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Bird615
I could see peace instead of this
 
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Whenever I get those thoughts now, I make sure I think that idea all the way to the end. The blackout, embarrassment, hangover, shame, the horror of waking up and realizing I'm still not sober... Everything I hated about drinking.

Now I can remember the reality of it instead of the fantasy.

I also had to do something more than just not drink. Doing it that way was sheer white-knuckle misery for me. Some kind of plan to get me out of that "missing it" and feeling deprived and lonely. I now have relief from that and have made some new and supportive friends.

I still get like that every once in a while but I only have to stay there as long as I want to now. I have ways to get myself out of those feelings.
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