i was more productive when i drank. Somehow anyhow.
I think i just pushed through the misery and plowed through what i had to get done knowing that at the end of the day i coudl kick back and blow off all the steam with some brew.
I think thats why anyhow I dunno. Now i get so frustrated etc.. have to stop take a breather then get back to it etc.. as a result less gets accomplished.
it is what it is tho. I'm just glad to be sober so whatever.