I can relate to you I was in your shoes years ago but I only had one child. I had undiagnosed anxiety and a depressive mood order which contributed to my alcoholism, maybe even created it. I am so happy to have been prescribed meds, because they've really helped me w this problem. I'm sure wo them It would have been impossible to have spurts of sobriety......I'm making progress I'm not perfect but I'm a helluva lot better than I've ever been. And I keep trying.....so eventually I will be such successful.....that's the law of large numbers. Plus this site has been extremely helpful.....keep coming back and sooner or later you too will benefit as I have.