Acceptance and love
Not sure how to accept the following: My addicted now XABF is not going to change, he really loves me, but he loves crack more, and I have not failed.
This week, my now X ABF wanted me to let his brother come visit. I said no, because I knew it was a trigger. I lost the argument. XABF left and got high after 30 days of no cocaine.
I am sad about Halloween as we had a good friend hosting a good, scary party. But after 2 rehab locations, I have no more patience.
But finally put me and my happiness first. I dont know where is goes from here. I love him completely. But, I cannot give in.
Owl, searching for wisdom.