Originally Posted by
Stewy84 
Yeah I think I am still depressed and anxious I'm locked in to certain things
1. I must try and watch all the football available on TV
2. I must play football 3 times a week
3. I must eat healthy 6 days a week, 1 not healthy
4. I must weigh myself every Sunday
These are some examples. I don't know how to escape it. I get locked in to my guitar playing, I'm at a spell I'm not in a good frame of mind when I pick it up so I don't get good results
I'm a dry drunk aren't I?
Dunno about dry drunk, but it certainly sounds like you're white-knuckling it a bit. I couldn't do that for long without feeling like I wanted to die, so you're doing better than I did.
There's a definite difference, in my opinion, between sobriety and recovery. Sobriety stopped me f***ing up my life any further. But it was Recovery that helped me start: putting things right; putting me right; seeing things right, and helped me learn to be happy and comfortable without alcohol.