Just wondering why you are so unable to take responsibility for your actions? Your correct, many do "throw back a few" but don't lose their marrage, disgust their partner, sleep with strippers, and puke and urinate on the floor. Thats the difference between a normal drinker and a alcoholic. You cannot be happy with this outlook. Stop blaming your wife, shes just "fed up". Really put yourself in her shoes, would you put up with the above described behavior from her? Good luck to you, I hope you receive the help you need.