Amy, you have helped so many of us on this forum. You advised us to reach out. You advised me to reach out and call the DV hotline when I was going through that major crisis with my AH. And I did it, and it was probably a life-saving decision. Today, I urge you to do the same. You need to reach out and call your doctor. What you describe also sounds a bit like depression as well. You just sound so overwhelmed by so many things and I think you should try to relax a bit and take it easy. You know how on this forum we care for each other and support each other. And we really all do care about you.