((((((Amy)))))) We care a lot. You give so much of yourself here at SR, always sharing such thoughtful, caring advice. Can you do the same for yourself now? I know it's hard to think about things logically when emotions & feelings get so strong & compulsive..... but even one little baby step toward reaching out & not isolating can make all the difference.
BTW - I can't fix a damn thing at my house either, like hopeful I found myself a great local handyman & let go of things that are beyond my talents. (I have always struggled with mechanical type of stuff.) He & my plumber (well-water systems here) are higher on my Christmas Card List than my IL's.
