Amy...babe....I am so sorry you are struggling.
I hope you reach out to get help for these issues. You are such a wonderful person, and you DESERVE the happy life that goes with that. As far as owning a home, I get ya. I own a home and I don't know how to do anything to fix anything. I hired a handyman who I can text what is wrong and he will either tell me how to fix it, or he is there the next day to do it for me. When I got divorced I hired him, and a guy to do my lawn. Done and done. They are high on my list of important people LOL.
We love you. Keep posing, you are never alone, we support you 100% percent my dear friend!