Hey Fuzzy
I'm glad you are back. And you haven't lost your sober time, just interrupted it. There is no reason you can't get right back to where you were. The tough part, as you are seeing, is the obsession. The obsession to drink like a normal person, to moderate, has to be utterly obliterated. Its like loosing weight, anyone can drop a few lbs. But can they keep it off? That requires lifelong changes and daily vigilance. Hang in there.