Amy-
We care!!!
It sounds like you are very sad. There is help out there for you. Please try and make baby steps. Call someone to get your TV fixed. Lots of times it is the cable company and you can't do anything about it yourself. You already pay to have that service for them to repair things.
Please reach out to a trusted friend or family member. They can help you find someone who might come out and talk to you. You can get through this rough time in your life. We are all so worth it!! Please reach out for some guidance.
Hugs my friend!!!!