Happy being me......I know Acoa meetings are about family dysfunction......that's why I want to go.....I appreciate your feedback....but I can't wait years to start this work.....it is central to my entire problem. If it disturbs me.....I'll back off. In the meantime I have a new therapist.....she said disabling due to my traumatic background is an option. I'm mulling that over. Tonight I'm going to my 4th aa meeting, it's a women's only meeting .....I'm walking there.....its at least 2 miles from my house....and here's where all my liking walking comes into play......the walk won't bother me. Tuesday I walked home from dropping off my rental and that was also about 2 miles. Took me 1:20 minutes.....didn't phase me and the next day I wasn't even sore. Maybe my higher power was preparing me for literally the long road before me. I'm on day 10... No drinking and no pot.