Oms,
So many of us have been there -- don't want to accept that we cannot drink ever. I have that a lot -- its not the cravings that get me, its the wanting to be like everyone else and not wanting to truly accept at my core that not matter what else everyone else can do, I cannot drink ever.
Make me much for sympathetic to diabetic and people with allergies -- you can have it, I can't.
But it is what it is, and we be who we be. So accept I have -- abstinence is not control.
We got this!