I was under the impression that my life was actually better drinking. However my mind was completely altered with alcohol on a daily basis, of course thats what I thought because I was addicted to it! What happened after I quit only proved that my life was going down fast and I was so delusional in thinking that it was okay. Fortunately I quit before it spiraled down further. We all can quit and we don't need rock bottom to do it, having alcoholism to begin with IS rock bottom already.
Congrats on 4 months, I'm just about there myself! And I hope we can last many more months and years even.