Thanks guys I just don't now they are my thoughts and that is how they come out< I am not sure what to do with all of them that I have but a lot of people think that I should find some sort of publisher and make good use of them but I figure that it might help someone out here to relate at what it was like what happened and what it is like now thanks for taking the time to read it I know it was LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG