I relapse out of arrogance, too. Like, every time. My arrogance is in thinking it will be different this time. That I will be so different from everybody else who quits alcohol because it screws up their life, because I will be able to return to drinking normally.
Is very dumb.
I don't know how to deal with it.
Feeling like you deserve a drink, though ... Could it help to write something out to remind yourself that drinking is not a reward? To make yourself think you instead deserve *not* to drink?