kboys,
Thank you for writing this here.
I keep a journal of the horrible things my AH does, and I read it a lot. I keep saying if it gets to "XYZ" then I am out. And when he gets there, I up the ante a little more. I keep telling myself "it will get better". It never does. It gets worse.
Seeing your post made me stop, and really feel what we are going through. It is real. It is bad. It is real bad.
Sending strength and peace your way, as I find more and more inside myself.
Thank you again for sharing.